I've quite often signed my posts stating "Life is good". It might be you have seen last of those statements.
About two weeks now I have been really weak. I can not sleep, eating is difficult. I've had quite a big problems with my sense of balance, left side of my body has not been working very well, and the headache is killing me. Still recovering from strokes I had over half a year ago and suffering from both Ménière's disease
and something my neurologist calls "epileptic migraine", I've thought my feelings, my problems are normal, that I'm as well as possible with all these diseases and discomforts.
This morning at 8:30 AM I had a joint meeting with both my GP, neurologist and cardiologist. It's basically still going on, been here at the clinic since that, been waiting this whole Easter holidays, just lying in the bed or sitting in the garden. As is in their power, the doctors once again revoked my driver's license, informing the authorities straight away that due medical reasons they request my license to be revoked for a period of 180 days. Then they went on, telling me the worst news I could imagine to hear.
My life as I have known it is now over. Most definitely. I do not know what happens in the future, at the moment I only have plans for next two weeks. Today I need to stay in the University Clinic where I am now posting this from hospital lobby PC, waiting to be taken to some tests. I should be able to leave the hospital tomorrow afternoon, but at the moment I am so pessimistic I really do not know nor do I care.
At the moment I do not have all the information I would like to have. Too many questions are still not answered. I can not believe most of what I've heard, and what I can believe I can not understand.
Waiting Angie to bring my netbook here, to be able to surf SF at least tonight.
Life, if not always good, most certainly is interesting. And always worth living.