Quote: Originally Posted by Baroness von Shush
I have baked Kari's famous chocolate cake today and here are the results!
satumainen - Kari please confirm this means Fabulous in Finnish! (I translated on the net but not sure if this is correct or not!
My apologies if it's something bad! LOL!
I love it, Hannah loves it, John loves it and my Dad has taken half the cake home with him!
Wishing you a lovely journey home tomorrow from hospital, I bet you can't wait!
BTW Hannah did the note behind the cake and that's a picture of you in your hospital bed! Not for long though!
Did you make this after my recipe (here
?) If so, I'm happy you tried it. Even if I say so myself, it really is satumainen (yes, you had right; satumainen means fabulous, literally "fable like" > satu = fable).
I'm not sure they'll let me out today. Already changed my flight to Mumbai to Wednesday, according to my original plans I should fly tonight from Zurich.
To put it very simple and short, I have several blockades in my blood circulation. Some on the right side of the head, some on my arm and leg. We have tried dissolution medicament together with blood thinners, but this has failed to work.
At the moment there's pressure in my head, causing this very disturbing almost aphasia
like symptoms, inability to form spoken words. I would not like you guys to experience this: I can think clearly (whatever Angie says
), I can put my thoughts in writing, but I have enormous problems to form speech. Especially in our "home language" German, or English. My home learned, domestic languages Finnish and Swedish are a bit easier, causing comical situations when Angie asks something and I form the German sentence in my brain to answer and then out comes a non-understandable sentence where all these four languages mix.
Today I should hear if the almost paralyzed left leg and arm are caused by the same thing. I am almost s***ting in my pants, can not remember being so afraid before. Thinking Angie, my sons and Mother in Finland, trying to remember if my will is really OK, and so on, although I've heard already this all can be treated; even if my life would never be same again, I am still going to live.
I'm mostly afraid to see how fast this is happening. It was a night about three weeks ago I had difficulties to sleep and later get up from bed. Neurologist thinks now it was a mild, unnoticed stroke. Since that, every day has been worse than the one before.
I'm very sad at the moment. A year ago I was living a normal life. A keen sailor, I can not remember when I've set my foot on a boat last time. A keen driver, loving these no limit German Autobahn's, getting 60 to 100K kilometers per year, now they are discussing about canceling my license altogether. We've always traveled a lot, now the last trip together was to Finland last spring. I play flute and saxophones, can not do it anymore. I've always been socially quite active, now when home since the strokes last year I'm mostly hiding from visitors and refusing invites, being ashamed of a small limp and lisp I had even before this last development. It seems all my plans are doomed to fail.
I'm sorry I'm complaining so much. Luckily for you, I have to stop now; the nurse comes soon with pills and breakfast, then to see the doctors.