Nommy I understand your loss as a pet becomes family too, I'm so sorry for you huge loss.
Our dog was much like a rescue animal , she came to our home when our daughter was still in a stroller, we decided
she would be good with our daughter, so we kept her, had her spayed , she too became a part of our family.
She to had to be put down with an illness, I had to take her to the Vet for this, she lay in the passenger side floor looking up
at me the whole drive out there, I'll never forget her sad eyes , I felt like she knew what was about to happen.
I stayed with the Vet until she had fallen asleep, went to my car sat there , weeping like a baby, until I could get control of
myself to drive back home. Never a good memory to have lost a wonderful friend.
People keep telling me I should have a dog since I'm alone now, NOPE, never want to go through that ever again.