This post is an emotional rant full of clichés. No need to read further, I am mostly posting for myself, for posterity.
"Today is the first day of the rest of your life", the mother of all clichés is a bit ridiculous but nothing describes better what today is to me.
Regarding the recent changes in my life (marital status, living arrangements, work, whatnot), today a lot of things end and a new phase starts. I am starting all over from scratch, a clean slate so to say. The life and everything around it as I knew it is gone, at 55 I am starting the rest of my life full of questions like what now, where to go, what did I do wrong and can I avoid those mistakes this time.
Past 5 years the Seven Forums and Eight Forums have became a virtual home of mine, Nine Forums and PC Help Forums in somewhat smaller scale but still there. Today I am feeling both lucky and happy that these forums exist and offer me some continuity I so very clearly need. In all honesty, I have got more support here than in real life be it sickness, marital issues or whatever.
Maybe it's time to change my personalized user title under my avatar. I do not feel "An angry old man" anymore; instead I think I am "A curious man".
Life goes on, MacOSX still sucks!