I am not on a very good mood today.
Start of the summer has been very boring. All our plans are on ice, due to my mother-in-laws worsened health situation. Judging by the weather it could be October now; mostly cold and windy, raining at least three days out of every five.
Sitting home, not able to help Angie as much as I wanted with her mother. Angie tells me to pack for a few days and go see my family in Finland or travel somewhere else, which we both know I could not do; making even a short trip and leaving her alone to cope with her mother would leave her without extra help when need arises, and give me a bad conscience.
I try to do what I can. I cook and clean home, try to be nice to my wife when she comes home exhausted after a long day with mother. She knows I would like to do more, but we have to think my dear mother-in-laws dignity; she does happily accept my help as long as it's Angie who takes care of her hygienic needs and clothing. What I do is mostly shopping, bringing groceries, take care of her bills etc.
The most difficult thing in this is to see how sad Angie is. She can not help to think that this might be the last summer mother is with us, and it's taking its toll on her.
Kari
